This photo was taken when I was the most happy with my body. Since being away my fitness has dropped and the food that I ate before travelling was a lot better and portions were a lot smaller. I know that it takes a lot more work to loose it than it does to put it on.
We are constantly being shown women in media posing showing off their bikini bodies, I have often read through various magazines and looked at the pictures and got quite disgruntled that these women looked like this and seemed to be 'perfect'. Yes I know that they would have worked damn hard at it, but then went I did, I still couldn't budge the tummy. So was I doing the wrong exercises?
Truthfully I only ever had major problems with two parts of my body, the top of my arms or dinner lady arms and my stomach. All I wanted to do was tone up a bit.
In 2012 when I came back from holiday, I realised that although I was already quite big I had managed to put on 3 kilo's. I was not happy, so when I arrived back I decided to try and get fit and start eating a bit more healthily. I was doing quite well walking every morning and eating healthy food and not any junk. This lasted about a month and then it just fizzled out. However that year I lost two kilos. At the end of the year I went away again and got quite sick that I ended up in hospital and didn't eat much for about two weeks, in that time I managed to loose four kilo's, when I saw that (although it was a horrible way of loosing it), I felt better in my skin and my clothes felt a lot more comfortable on as well. So in 2013 I made the resolution to get fit and although I was sick a few times that year I managed to stick to my resolution and loose nine kilos- this is when the photo was taken. So all in all I was very happy fifteen kilos in two years- and steadily loosing it I was very happy.
The perks of loosing it all was I became a lot more confident, I was finally able to wear sleeveless tops and I even bought a Bikini something I hadn't done in about four years.
My diet changed rapidly and although I still ate sweets and chocolate, I was able to moderate how much I ate and then balance it then burn it off.
However it did start to get a bit obsessive as I started to watch my weight, I became quite controlling on what I ate and how much I ate a day, I wasn't staving my self but I would weigh myself every day and if I had put on weight I would eat less that day or just have a smoothie or nuts and get out of the house so I didn't tempt myself with food. At the time I didn't think it was obsessive I just thought I was eating a healthier amount and said that my stomach had shrunk and it had. So in the morning I may have two or three coffees and that would last me until lunch when I would have three or four rice cakes or a salad and then for dinner I would usually have rice cakes or yogurt. I hated the thought of putting weight on and it really did start to boarder line on unhealthy, towards the end of my time in Australia although I still didn't eat huge portions, I was eating a lot more and balancing it with going to jogs and going to the gym and them having green smoothies after. Weighing my self became a habit so much so that when I wasn't working I would weigh myself after most meals and every time I visited the loo and when I was working I would weigh myself before and after work.
When I went away, I struggled with not weighing my self each day, as the places I stayed in didn't have scales. So to compensate I would go to the mirror and notice if my stomach was a little bigger or if it was bloated or if there were any changes.
Now I have a much more healthy relationship with food and weight. Whilst I was away I put on two and a half kilo's, but it didn't bother me that much which surprised me. I still want to get back to the weight I was when I left but I am not being unhealthy about it. I do weigh myself still but sometimes I don't even notice when I miss a day and it doesn't bother me. Although I may not have my 'ideal body', I still feel confident and able to appreciate my body without becoming obsessive and worrying whether or not I put on kilo today.
We are constantly being shown women in media posing showing off their bikini bodies, I have often read through various magazines and looked at the pictures and got quite disgruntled that these women looked like this and seemed to be 'perfect'. Yes I know that they would have worked damn hard at it, but then went I did, I still couldn't budge the tummy. So was I doing the wrong exercises?
Truthfully I only ever had major problems with two parts of my body, the top of my arms or dinner lady arms and my stomach. All I wanted to do was tone up a bit.
In 2012 when I came back from holiday, I realised that although I was already quite big I had managed to put on 3 kilo's. I was not happy, so when I arrived back I decided to try and get fit and start eating a bit more healthily. I was doing quite well walking every morning and eating healthy food and not any junk. This lasted about a month and then it just fizzled out. However that year I lost two kilos. At the end of the year I went away again and got quite sick that I ended up in hospital and didn't eat much for about two weeks, in that time I managed to loose four kilo's, when I saw that (although it was a horrible way of loosing it), I felt better in my skin and my clothes felt a lot more comfortable on as well. So in 2013 I made the resolution to get fit and although I was sick a few times that year I managed to stick to my resolution and loose nine kilos- this is when the photo was taken. So all in all I was very happy fifteen kilos in two years- and steadily loosing it I was very happy.
The perks of loosing it all was I became a lot more confident, I was finally able to wear sleeveless tops and I even bought a Bikini something I hadn't done in about four years.
My diet changed rapidly and although I still ate sweets and chocolate, I was able to moderate how much I ate and then balance it then burn it off.
However it did start to get a bit obsessive as I started to watch my weight, I became quite controlling on what I ate and how much I ate a day, I wasn't staving my self but I would weigh myself every day and if I had put on weight I would eat less that day or just have a smoothie or nuts and get out of the house so I didn't tempt myself with food. At the time I didn't think it was obsessive I just thought I was eating a healthier amount and said that my stomach had shrunk and it had. So in the morning I may have two or three coffees and that would last me until lunch when I would have three or four rice cakes or a salad and then for dinner I would usually have rice cakes or yogurt. I hated the thought of putting weight on and it really did start to boarder line on unhealthy, towards the end of my time in Australia although I still didn't eat huge portions, I was eating a lot more and balancing it with going to jogs and going to the gym and them having green smoothies after. Weighing my self became a habit so much so that when I wasn't working I would weigh myself after most meals and every time I visited the loo and when I was working I would weigh myself before and after work.
When I went away, I struggled with not weighing my self each day, as the places I stayed in didn't have scales. So to compensate I would go to the mirror and notice if my stomach was a little bigger or if it was bloated or if there were any changes.
Now I have a much more healthy relationship with food and weight. Whilst I was away I put on two and a half kilo's, but it didn't bother me that much which surprised me. I still want to get back to the weight I was when I left but I am not being unhealthy about it. I do weigh myself still but sometimes I don't even notice when I miss a day and it doesn't bother me. Although I may not have my 'ideal body', I still feel confident and able to appreciate my body without becoming obsessive and worrying whether or not I put on kilo today.